Hello Dear Reader,
The last day or two has left me very reflective. Sometimes I have to just get out of my own way and move forward.
I’m feeling a bit motivated today. I cleaned up a little and decided to volunteer today. I started volunteering at the Rock Thrift Store last week and had decided to go every Tuesday but last Tuesday I didn’t go because Kim let me borrow her flat iron and I had had it for about a week and so decided to do my hair (which took like 2 hours) instead.
That’s not the best reason not to volunteer but that’s what happened so I made sure I went today. It felt good helping out.
Last night I went shopping for school supplies. I’ll be moving back on campus in September so I picked up a few things. One thing was an amazingly awesome mug that reads “be your own kind of beautiful.”
No I didn’t need it but the message made me feel confident and happy so I got it.
Anyway, I went to a Landmark Forum, what I would like to call “opportunity meeting” and something was reinforced to me. If you change your perspective you change your life. Now that is something that I have been trying to work on but it is not yet mastered.
I feel like everyone tries to get through life the best way we can but to be honest you weren’t meant to go it alone. Not trying to force my religion on you or anything but I believe God made Adam and Eve. Adam became so lonely he asked for a companion.
Most of us believe that going through life as a lone wolf makes us stronger and invulnerable. Truth be told, hanging out with Kim, Dez, and Jen this past month and a half has left me stronger and more fulfilled than I ever had these past 3 years in college trying to go I alone.
I’m just at a point where a world of opportunities seem to be open. I haven’t had this feeling since high school. On Tuesday I was thinking about joining the peace corps, joining the Air Force reserves, going abroad for internships, and many other things. All at once I realized that anything is possible right now.
It was beyond weird and I don’t know what sparked it. Dez and I made a “Crazy Bucket List” and it was amazing. I felt on top of the world as I thought about all that’s possible in life.
Sorry this is so long. I’ve fallen off the wagon with my writing and I’m getting back on starting today and have had so many experiences.
I recently got an internship with a company called Conundrum Alliance. I will be a marketing assistant for now but I hope that I can eventually become a life coach with this company. They are up and coming and I love their mission so I’ll do what I can to support them.
I went to yoga last night and felt amazing.
So here is my “Crazy Bucket List” and I encourage you all to make one as well:
-Become a Fitness Instructor
-Produce a song/demo tape
-Go to Niagara Falls
-Start a Creative Writing Non-Profit
-Go to Japan
-Learn to Speak Japanese Fluently
-Learn to Speak Spanish Fluently
-Go Scuba Diving
-Become a Life Coach
-Become and Accomplished Writer
-Learn to do a Flip
-Become a Doctor
-Become a Chiropractor
-Write and Publish a Book
-Learn to Play the Piano
-Build a Working Computer
-Solve a Rubix Cube
-Sail to Puerto Rico
-Do the Splits With Ease
So that’s all the things I want to accomplish before I kick the bucket. I’m going to put this on my fridge and work towards these goals.
I need to post more because so much has been happening to me that I can’t fit it all in one post. You should expect to see more pictures (Not videos unfortunately because it’s too expensive at the moment 😦 sorry).
What I’ve learned this past week:
1. Never give up. You have to go through some bad times so that you can be prepared for the good times.
2. Be who you want to be today. Although it may be hard to be authentic, “be the best version of you today”-everyday. (quote from Coach Susan)
3. Clarify the goals you want to meet and then try your best to meet those goals.
4. Don’t be afraid of failure. We are going to fail sometimes, but don’t let that stop you from acting because failure is how we learn to get better.
5. Talk to people. You never know who you are going to meet and what opportunities you can find. As a person who has been in their shell for many years, just talking to people and sharing my story with them has changed my life immensely.
6. Change your perspective-change your life. If you choose to see closed doors everywhere, that’s what your reality will be. If you open your mind and heart to see the endless possibilities that life has to offer, that’s what your reality is. It pays to be optimistic. 🙂 Now don’t get me wrong, living in the world we live in can make optimism really difficult and sometimes you do have to sift through the darkness to find the silver lining. I assure you that there is always a silver lining. This world we live in offers us so many opportunities but that doesn’t mean they’ll just fall from the sky, we have to take initiative and look for opportunities anywhere and everywhere.
7. Having a support circle does wonders. if you feel that the people you are currently associated with do not support you, remember that there are over a billion people on this planet. Somewhere out there you will find people who you mesh with and who can support you. Since I came to San Diego, I felt like my support system was gone. My friends and family were not in my day to day life. It has been three years and only now am I gaining a support system: Kim, Dez, and Jen. It can be hard but don’t give up, just keep looking.
That’s all I can think of for now. I will post soon. I hope everyone who reads this can take something out of it. I also hope that if there are people out there who are going through hardships, that things will look up for you as soon as possible.