Good morning Dear Reader,
This week’s affirmation:
“There is clarity within me and around me.”
This post will be a bit long so I apologize in advance.
This post will also talk about me leaving the Christian faith. If this upsets you, I do apologize and suggest you not read any further. It is not my intention to upset or offend anyone. I am merely sharing my truth.
I gave up institutionalized religion about 6 years ago as of this writing. I had been raised as a Christian and even as a kid there were many things that didn’t make sense to me. Things that couldn’t be rationalized or explained. Even in college, when I’d left home, I still felt like I needed to be a Christian. I did try to keep my faith. I tried to find a church, and I tried to find myself within the confines of Christianity.
After some soul searching, I realized that it wasn’t that I had a problem with God. I had a problem with Christianity as a whole. Though I still believe in God, I worship very differently and I look at God differently too. In Christianity, He is built like a superhero with the following powers:
-He is all-knowing
-He is without flaw
-He is all good
-He is all-powerful
The problem with that for me is that it doesn’t make sense for all of those to be true while at the same time the world we live in exists. Some of the Christians I’ve met have rationalized that with “there’s a plan” or “the devil” or “it’s humans who are evil/it’s because we have free will”.
However, for me, there is no way to rationalize to me how a being of ultimate power could allow children to be harmed. Somehow, people have made all sorts of arguments about adults hurting other adults. Infants and children should be protected and I can’t fathom that any sort of divine plan would include that.
So, because we do live in a world where children are being violated and murdered that means a couple of things:
-God knows about it but cannot do anything.
-God doesn’t know about every case but would do something.
-God knows about it but chooses not to do anything.
-God doesn’t know about it but even if he did, he couldn’t do anything.
One thing God has been referenced to in the Bible is a Father and in churches, I’ve heard him proclaimed as the greatest Father you’ll ever have. However, I don’t know any parent who could standby while their child is being violated, tortured, or murdered. If humans are nowhere near as decent as God, and a regular human parent would do everything in their limited power to help, then there is a greater expectation of a higher being to do something.
I’d like to mention, I believe people should practice whatever religion they want. I’m by no means bashing it. It just isn’t the religion for me for those reasons.
Personally, after studying the Bible, going to varied churches, and taking religious courses, I came to a different conclusion. I don’t think God is as involved as everyone believes him to be. To help you with your job interview while people sleep on the streets seems a little imbalanced to me.
In 2014. I stumbled upon a book on paganism and witchcraft. The idea that we each have a personal power that we can use to improve our situation really stuck with me. I’ve seen too many dedicated Christians stay in situations they didn’t like because they were waiting for God to save them. However, there is a passage from the book of James that I’m reminded of:
“14 What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.” (James 2:14-17)
I don’t think that sitting and praying will help. I think God has given everyone some a little gift. The gift of personal power. We were created with everything we would need to succeed in this life.
Nowadays, my spiritual practice is a combination of faiths. I take the parts that sit well with me to build and maintain my moral compass and personal code. I do consider myself Pagan and a Witch. I study Buddhist teachings, I read Psalms and Proverbs, I have even read some literature on Satanism. Personally, I read a little of everything and anything.
I think faith like magick, is something that boosts the results of the work you’ve put in. When you have done all you can for something and things are out of your control, you have faith then. Religion is supposed to teach you how to navigate the world in a positive light. It’s supposed to teach you about humanity, love, justice, and discipline. At least in my eyes. I think God has many faces and can take many forms. Nature around us is God to me. Listening and resonating with the heartbeat of the Earth is how I feel close to God.
My life has had many twists and turns. I by no means am perfect. I am always learning and growing and changing. Spiritually, I believe a little piece of divinity is in me. I believe I can tap into that divinity and achieve anything. I believe being a good person is important. That love and compassion are essential to life.
In any case, I apologize for this post being so long but spiritual health is very important to me.
Thank you for reading and have a great day. ^-^
Another great book that has some concepts of spirituality that I adopt in my practice is The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. You can find it on Amazon here or if you’re interested, you can use this link, for 2 months free with Scribd and read it there.