Good evening Dear Reader,
Firstly, today I’m grateful for:
- Andrew and I went on a micro date. We went to a cafe to get boba and played connect four. It was fun and reminded me that even after 5 years, it still feels like the cupcake stage sometimes.
- I met a new friend and was able to vent to her about some of the things on my head. Her energy was wonderful and I was able to work through some difficult feelings.
- I had a great cry last night and what was left over was more space to fill with motivation today.
So far 2020 is going well, relatively speaking. I’m partway through my Instagram challenges, I’ve made a little commission off of the poetry books, and I have more stories to showcase.
I have had some high highs and my first low low of the year. Although it was not fun in the moment, today I’m feeling a bit refreshed.
The first couple of weeks of January have shown me that there are many things that I want to do and I need some serious reorganization in order to accomplish them.
On one hand I have my day job goals. At my hotel, we are going through some changes. I’m trying to be a champion of implementing positive ways to improve efficiency and communication between the different departments. I’ll be honest, it is difficult.
However, this is my specialty. I’m an emotional analytic. By that I mean when I think about how to make improvements, I take into account a variety of factors. Ease of implementation, impact on those who will be effected, varying personalities, etc. in order to find a suitable solution that will best help the team. This is a skill I’ve cultivated living with a large and very demanding family life. I thrive with this sort of task but again, it can be a bit challenging.
On the other hand I have my writing career. It is my calling and I want to thrive as a writer. The problem is that there are two types of writing for me.
- There is the creative type: poems and stories. I’m good at that but after researching it seems this type of writing has the potential to make money after X time.
- There is the money-making type: paid blog posts, articles, freelance gigs, content mills, technical writing, etc. For this type, I do have experience in, but I’ve been struggling to focus on getting more work.
There’s only 24 hours in a day and trying to take on all the work goals I have as well as things like health, learning, and hobby-related goals is a challenge to say the least.
The last few days have caused me to reflect.
I know I CAN do it. The question is HOW.
How can I get it all done? How can I dig deeper to find the energy and motivation? How can I move forward while still being gentle and authentic?
Though I do not have the answers, a small part of me is excited.
Secretly, dear reader, I love a challenge. The idea of being under pressure and yet thriving is somewhat appealing.
As I figure things out, I’m just going to try. See what works. See what patterns work best for me. Research different routines.
At the end of the day, I live a life by my design and I can change things at anytime. I encourage you too, dear reader to live a life by your design.